June 19, 2009

recovering

For those of you waiting for an update:

Surgery went well. All ovarian cysts were removed (I'll found out how many there were on the 29th), endo was removed, and my ovary and tube was put back where it belongs. It turns out that it had attached itself to the abdominal wall AGAIN! :( (which is what prob. caused the majority of the pain I was in). Also, unfortunately, more endometriosis was discovered --more than from my Nov. surgery. The doc didn't think that there would be much because it's "too soon", he said -from the last surgery but unfortunately it was actually more than what was there in Nov. --not good.

I started waking up too soon, again -last time i woke up right after surgery and my body went into a state of shock. So, this time I had told myself not to do that again . . . I remember starting to wake up and the tube was in my mouth still. it's very disorienting, waking up from anesthesia. I was biting on it and trying to swallow. The nurses were telling me to relax and calm down . . . after realizing and remembering where i was, what i was doing, what was going on, i told myself to go back to sleep. So, I did. But then I woke up again when they were removing my breathing tube....not fun. So, I remember telling the nurse that I felt like I was going to get sick from my stomach (slurring it out over and over until she understood me) and she gave me anti-nausea meds through my iv and I went back to sleep. Then I remember hearing all these voices and the machines and having to remind myself again of where I was and why I was in that strange strange state of mind . . . then I remember feeling scared and alone and slurring over and over "where's my husband? Can you call my husband? Where's my husband?..." It was sooooo hard getting them to understand me. My mind felt like I was talking correctly but the nurse kept saying "what hun?...you're okay..."

So, Chris and Kryssa were called to my bedside and I had to put a smile on my face --I had forgotten that Kryssa was with him . . . I 'came to' quite quickly after that. I didn't want Kryssa to get scared of what I looked like and how I sounded. (she still says that I sounded funny! hee hee --she was a brave girl!)

The nurse helped me get dressed and I slowwwwwwwly made my way to the potty . . . and then she asked if I felt well enough to go home. I was so happy and said yes!

Yesterday was amazing! I felt incredible. Other than the incisions and my achy belly -and sluggish speech and movements- I felt normal. ha ha. I couldn't believe how great I felt. My voice wasn't raspy like the time before (I basically lost my voice the first and second times)... I was thinking "FINALLY!!! I 'normal' recovery!!"

And then 8pm came . . . fever until 3am. :( by 5am I could NOT MOVE!!! :( The anesthesia affected my body -first time out of the 3 times-. I had no idea why my body hurt sooooo badly. I told Chris that the only way I can describe it is as if I fell off or jumped off a 2nd or 3rd floor of a building!!! :( Oh, it's HORRIBLE!! I feel as if I was brutally beaten and slammed to the floor over and over and over again. I can barely walk, move, eat, swallow, breathe, and everything in between. A nurse I spoke with today said that another patient (from another check up call) said the same thing! My doc and the nurse say it's a reaction from the anesthesia being absorbed by my body. Oh, and my doc prescribed me some antibiotics to take care of the fever. He also gave me his cell number in case I needed him during the weekend. He is the BEST doc EVER!!! :D He really takes amazing care of me and my family. :) Praise God for that.

So, I've been saying that I guess this is one of those times where it gets worse before it gets better . . . ? I thought I'd be dancing by today --with the way I was perfectly fine yesterday (until about 8pm).

So, now I am reminded every single (literally) breathing second --that I just had surgery yesterday and I AM recovering.

So, the great news is that we are going well on our plan for a pain free fight against Endometriosis (for more information on endometriosis visit
http://www.acog.org/publications/patient_education/bp013.cfm) and PCOD (for more info on PCOD you can visit this site http://www.drmalpani.com/book/chapter15.html I found it informative.). I just have to stay positive and recover well . . . then we keep a close eye on it and stick w/ the meds in our 'plan'. :D

Thanks for your thoughts and prayers.
I will keep you posted...

June 16, 2009

Going Under

wow, what a weekend...

Saturday: I cooked some yummy yummy fresh blueblerry pancakes (yes, a bit conceited, haha!) and turkey cheese omlets. Then I ended up being in bed the entire rest of the day -in and out of sleep, endo episodes were nuts and too frequent. I watched the entire Season 5 of House. Chris did a wonderful job grooming the front lawn.

Sunday: Started off super duper fantastic!! :D Chris, Kj, and I went to see the movie UP. We LOVED it!!! I SOOOO have to write this:

Carl Fredricksen(movie character): Do you want to play a game? It's called See Who Can Go the Longest Without Saying Anything.

Russell(movie character): Cool! My mom loves that game!

Kryssa (super loud and excited for everyone to hear): OH, I LUUUUUUV PLAYING THAT GAME TOO!!!

LOL!!!!! everyone around us looked right at her just laughing and laughing. Chris and I couldn't help cracking up either!! it was super duper cute the way she was soooo excited to hear about that 'game' in the movie!! lol

*all thanks to her bestest friend, Kaylani! Kaylani and Kryssa played that game, in the car, the whole way to Build-A-Bear, in May. That was Kryssa's first time learning and playing the game --and she sure luuuuved it! ;) (I did too!! hee hee)


From there we went to Costco! Lots 'o fun! :) We ate ice cream and a Churro as we walked around and shopped.

One NOT SO FUN part at Costco: some little girl ran up to kryssa and just scratched her on her face!!! How horrible! it was bleeding and all... So, now, because of the lack of control of another child, our child has a nasty cut on her face. Chris has been putting neosporine on it...

After Costco, we went to Chili's w/ poppa, for dinner. it was super duper yummy! By the end of dinner, my pains were too much to handle. I headed to the ER hoping to get some tests done --w/ the way it all felt (and other stuff that had been going on w/ the pains) I imagined there was another cyst taking my ovary hostage. I got to St. Luke's at 830pm and after hrs of waiting, my theory was confirmed. I was told to get some bed rest till the pain went away, to avoid heavy exertion, and to see my doc because of the size... I got home at 445am.

Monday: Albertina and Jo came to visit!!! :D it was wonderful!! Because of my recent doc orders, we didn't get a chance to go to Sea World or La Cantera, like we had planned. :( However, we did get to hang out and play w/ the girls!!! :D

I had a doc appt and we went over some options for tackling this endo and pcos. I'm scheduled for another surgery this Thursday, June 18th @ 10am. It's my third in 18months and God willing my last for a while... On sunday I am scheduled to start Yaz to 'suppress' my ovaries. My doc says if we can get them to stop working then I should be good to go for a longer period of time... and i'll continue on my pain meds as needed. I don't see why he can't just take my right one out! I don't want it. it doesn't like me and it's causing me so much pain. can't i survive w/ just one?!

So, all day today, I've been on day one of my pre-op diet. I've had graham crackers w/ milk, juices, coffee, corn, soft carrots, peas, bread . . . tomorrow I can only have liquids :p geeeeez!

I'm enjoying another cup of decaf. coffee...

my new pain meds work like a charm (not prefectly --but well enough to make me feel "good" and help me sleep, and take more of the pain away than the others did.

I will keep you posted. Pls pray for me. I'm a bit nervous. I thought I wouldn't really care much or be nervous this time around but I am more concerned about my recovery. That is the toughest part, from the experience of the last two. we'll see.


I'm so anxious though to be pain free again!! :D


i'll blog again soon...

June 12, 2009

lisdexia

Okay, I have been known to say some pretty backwards things. BUT I sooooo had to post this one.

I was on the phone explaining something that Kryssa did -that I found super cute- and this is what I ended up saying:

"she had her lips all puckered up, 'cause she was putting on stapchick . . ." (I so meant to say chapstick, really!) my mom and I cracked up laughing -just couldn't contain ourselves!!!

lol




*this one is one that I will never forget:
I was in middle school. Before the first bell, we would wait outside under the walkway cover/port. One super duper windy day, we were all standing around, having to yell over the howling sounds of the wind...I started yelling, "OH I REALLY LIKE YOUR DOCS. THEY LOOK SO CUTE. MY MOM WOULD NEVER WEAR ME LET THOSE." -instead of 'my mom would never let me wear those'...

I don't know that I'll ever forget how somehow the howling wind decided to die down RIGHT when I yelled that across our group of friends. Everyone just stopped and stared. Then we broke out laughing...



I've got plenty more where that came from. ;)

Earth worms and pottery

the video I mentioned . . . from Wednesday, June 10, 2009



**oh, and I have NO IDEA who gives that crazy laugh in the beginning and why!!! LOL.

June 10, 2009

not my 'normal' wednesday

woke up. reset my alarm. woke up. got dressed. woke kryssa up. bathed kryssa. packed lunches, drinks, and snacks. headed to work. got stuck in traffic on I10 (blinking arrow made everyone slow down and believe the lane was closed --only to find out it WASN'T after we all scooted over!!!!). got to work. ran morning club. i did zoology today. talked about rainforest animals. drew, colored, cut and pasted. talked some more. and some more. cleaned up. went outside to play w/ dirt (haven't done that since i was a wee kid) --not really play w/ dirt but scrap and gather loose dirt in a cup. poured water in it. picked out earthworms (Jess purchased earthworms for our group -supposed to have been meal worms but store was out.) watched behaviors of the earthworm as it burrowed around in our cup. super GROSS!!!! yet quite fun.

lunch time. heard some amazing news. ate a bit. tossed my food aside to clean up vomit. yay. :| lectured kryssa before she got on the van for a mini field trip (a trip to a 'paint ceramic' place). ran afternoon club. I did cooking class -breakfast. had a blast! only one injury. minor cut from learning to cut apples :(. she's a-ok.

cleaned up. gathered last bit of energy. took out garbage. drove a co-worker home. went to heb. bought limes. came home. fed kryssa dinner. baked cupcake order. sat at computer for a bit. took out cupcakes. paced around --a bit confused and lost. don't know why i couldn't get my thoughts straight. ha. put kryssa in bed. she got grounded again today. booooooo. :(

made frosting. frosted cupcakes. cut limes. garnished cupcakes. packed 'em up and refrigerated 'em.

suprised how soon i finished everything --i don't know what to do w/ myself. not really. i still have to move laundry from downstairs. i won't have time to fold and put it all away tonight. i've been light headed and in an odd state of mind. can't really focus this evening. i'm just super tired and basically drained from here until sunday. ha ha. it takes me all of saturday -off from work- to be recovered by sunday. yeah. sounds about right.

yes. my blog is sooooooo grammatically incorrect -? is that even right?! ha.

my day in a nut shell. a HUGE nut shell.


what a day.
i'm ready for tomorrow.

I'll go shower. cuddle and sleep. I'm excited for tomorrow's field trip. we r going to Wonder World! haven't been there since i was 12 yrs old or so.


kj at the pottery place











Margarita cupcakes



















*I'm editing a video of the day. I'll post it soon.

June 9, 2009

Lions and tigers and bears! Oh MY!

Seriously.

Today was a Zoo field trip. 36 students, 3 staff. I had 15; Sean had 14 and Jess had the rest. We had plenty of fun . . . hippos, zebras, elephants, flamingos, bears, alligators, crocodiles, snakes, frogs, monkeys, etc.

I'm am super EGG-SAUCE-TED!!!!

I really, truly, think these 'child care' jobs keep me from wanting more than just one! lol I was counting 1-15 about every 5 mins or so. No one got lost and that makes it a TERRIFIC day! lol. The fact that we had fun on top of that --makes it a superb day!

I could use a full body massage right now . . . I came straight home to shower and relax. I'm sooooo ready to catch my zzzzzz's tonight. :) as long as I don't accidentally over sleep. haha.


Oh! I finally bought something to transfer my mother's day flower to. . . it's a white metal . . . bin? tin? w/ handles.

OUCH! I definitely got burnt... :( I scratch an itch and then feel the pain creep in. Yeeouch! I personally can't see a difference in color --but I def. feel it when something rubs up against me.


Anyway . . . so, I'll be transferring my flowers over --some time soon.

Nighty night.
Hope you're all enjoying YOUR summer! :)

June 8, 2009

June 7, 2009

Sleepy Sunday

washing, drying, folding, hanging . . . loving our new washer and dryer!!






They were delivered yesterday so we are still learning all the settings.

Summer has been manageable. Field trips have been super fun! Last week we went to the Whitte museum

















and also Ice Skating!!! KJ did such an AMAZING job on ice skates -all on her own!! :D



























so, we are just lounging around . . . watching movies and working on laundry --which has been a ton 'o fun using our new front loading washer and dryer!! All sorts of buttons and settings but so far we love 'em! :D

Chris and K are currently out and about running errands. I'm hoping they purchase a bigger flower pot for my mother's day flowers. Those seeds that K planted for me on Mother's Day have grown a whole bunch and are now needing more room to bloom! :) ...I just got a call. Chris forgot his wallet here at home so I have to drive it over to him. No more nice quiet time. ha ha. ;)

I'm glad to be off tomorrow again! :D *oh, except for the 6:30pm meeting I have to attend. :P Pooey!

June 2, 2009

Endo Info

I found this very informative...

I was diagnosed with endometriosis in November 2008. I've been suffering with the pains and side effects since at least 2001, that I can clearly remember. I get a lot of questions here and there about it. I know most people (not anyone in particular but 'most' as in the people that see me in pain and ask "what's wrong?" and the only reply that is simple enough is "my stomach hurts") don't understand what I mean when I say "my stomach hurts". I, at times, find it frustrating and isolating . . . I wish it was just as simple as a "stomach ache", but unfortunately it is much more than just that.

I found this info/link on a support group site and thought to share for anyone interested in more info on it...

http://www.acog.org/publications/patient_education/bp013.cfm



**I do know I'm not alone on this -as unfortunate as it is (to know others go through the same, and some worse)... I pulled this info from a reply on this comment:

" Hi, I have been diagnosed with endo for about 4 years now, I have just come out of hospital after having yet another laparoscopy. One of the things I find hardest about this awful disease (apart from the excrutiating pain!) is how to make friends and family understand it! I often find myself when I'm in the middle of an 'endo episode' just saying its bad stomach ache!! when of course that is just boolacks! Its just so frustrating sometimes, I do feel a bit like a fraud but its so hard to explain that in fact its not stomach ache more like someone trying to rip my ovaries/bowel out with a rusty nail!!! How do others explain the wonderful world of endo???!!!! "




Debbie Downer? Possibly . . . but it's very informative for those who are interested. :)


;)

June 1, 2009

First day of June

June first . . . ah, I love it. :)

My sis came into to town today (and Jo, too) and we went to Sea World. My summer schedule started today --I'm off on Mondays!! :D

My sis got here around 145pm or so and then we didn't get to Sea World until 4:03pm. Jo ate, my sis ate, I ate, oh and I vacuumed too, before we left. I felt sooooo bad after we paid and went in, fed the dolphins, and heard a 'closing' announcement. THEY CLOSED AT 5PM!!!!! :( Grrrrr. Why would they close at 5pm in JUNE?!?! I felt horrible. My sis did pay for the ticket that will get her in all the way through the end of Dec. But still. We were all lotioned up w/ sun screen and excited for the water park and all...we fed dolphins and saw sharks, fish, stingrays, jelly fish and then left. ha!

My new washer and dryer were supposed to be delivered tomorrow and Chris got a call w/ some upsetting news. The lady at the store was wrong about delivery and what we originally scheduled would not be able to be met. Chris called and spoke w/ her manager and ended up getting a $50 credit towards our purchase! Praise God and yay for Chris -stepping it up. So, we should have them on Saturday.

I was up at 6:55am this morning and I should be extremely sleepy? no? I have to wake up at 6am and I know I should be sleeping --but what am I doing? blogging, while I wait for Chris to finish putting Kryssa to bed so that we can watch a movie. haha! ;) The movie is called Personal Effects. It looks like it's going to be good --we'll see.

So, tomorrow starts day one of my 'full work day' schedule. I go in at 8:30am and should leave by 5:30am. Same for Wednesday and Thursday. Friday, I work from 8am-6pm. Doesn't seem to be so bad . . . we'll see what I think after a week or two. Tomorrow is our first Field trip day for the summer. We are going to the Whitte Museum. I'm pretty excited and so is Kryssa. :)

I'm heading downstairs to pop some corn now . . .



g'nite