May 18, 2011

I can almost see the finish line

The adoption home-study is complete.  The "placement", foster/kinship, home study took place on January 20th; the first adoption home study took place on May 5; and now we just finished our final adoption home study/interview(s)!! I don't know how we got here so fast.  It feels like just a few months ago we were day-dreaming about her "official move-in".  Well, she moved in last week (as in ALL of her belongings are now here).  She's been living with us for almost three months now.  It feels pretty official --but we are just waiting on the "legal stuff".  We will have a mini celebration when we are confirmed as her 'legal guardians' —we will paint her room and buy her a new bedroom set (she already has her zebra decor, which she absolutely loves!)

It's so similar to waiting for the arrival of your newborn —setting up the nursery and daydreaming of what it will be like... but she's already here!  :D  We're just waiting to release our excitement once it's "official".

We are so blessed!  Thank you Jesus for your many blessings!!

May 13, 2011

Little white pills

I had my appointment on Tuesday.  It was confirmed that I am NOT PREGNANT.  But the doc was very happy that my 'day 1' had come and gone all on it's own.  Also, he said, again, how happy he was that the meds are working well for me.  :)

No sono this time because as long as I ovulate, he says, then cysts shouldn't form.  Also, I haven't been in any concerning pain in over a month!! :D  I'm a happy gal!

So, I'm back on the little white pills again —clomid and continuing metformin.  I'm not looking forward to the mood swings, fatigue, and hot flashes —but I am looking forward to ovulation day!! :D

Oh, and I completed my 30-day exercise challenge!  I started exercising on April 7 and at my appointment, on May 10th, I am happy to announce that the scale showed me brand new digits! —2 lbs lighter.  :)  It's not a whole bunch, but it's a start and I can definitely see and feel the difference it has already made.  I took a small break and have already started another 30-day exercise challenge on May 10th.  So, we'll see if this not only leads to a healthier life and look but also conception.  :)

later, gator!

May 6, 2011

May 3, 2011

Surprised —but not too surprised.

Not Pregnant.  (again Yet!)  ;)

I managed to sleep okay through the night and waited to test this morning.  As usual, I can imagine a line in that first window; but when I slap myself to reality, there is not a line in that first window...

Strange things happened to me after this:
I managed to fall back to sleep (I woke up at 6am, when Chris kissed me good-bye, and I just had to test!) after I tested but not before I checked my facebook.  I clicked through prom photos of one of my nieces.  She looked absolutely stunning, in my opinion.   Then I went to back to sleep.  My dream was wild...  My "stunning" niece was there and in her beautiful prom dress.  My sisters were all there (all 4 of them).  Chris was there and so were our two girls.  It was some sort of wedding rehearsal or something.  All in the middle of time traveling through my dream, I dreamt about taking this hpt and being soooooo heart broken and sad and not being able to tell anyone —because I didn't want to ruin the joy over the big event.  I kept "running away", literally.  Then someone would find me and drag me back to the event.  It was very strange...

I plan on testing again on Friday —once I'm up and ready to stay awake.  No more crazy dreams!

May 2, 2011

To wait or not to wait.... that IS the question [tonight]

Chris bought me some hpts and I was going to take on earlier today but then when I read the instructions, it did say if I am testing before missed period to test with first morning urine... so, I decided to wait.

But now I'm sitting here and the only thing I can think about is that the last positive test we had was a test I took at night.  Also, I'm finding a lot of positive test result images, on google, that showed up as early as 10 dpo. 

I feel that I should wait --just to get the best possible result.  I'm just not sure if I'm going to be able to get any sleep tonight...
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