April 29, 2008

she made it all better

I just had to blog about this:

Today was (still is) a BIG/BUSY day for us. We had to go to the vet w/ the puppy for her first check up and shots --on the way, Kryssa was petting her and talking to her about getting shots . . . how she has to get hers in order to go to school and how if the puppy is good for her shots maybe they'll give her a sticker --"when I get my shots, I'm good and I get a sticker and sometimes a lollipop. Maybe you'll get a sticker after you get your shots . . . it's gonna be okay, you just have to get your shots like me . . ."

It was tooooo cute!! I'm driving to the vet enjoying the whole conversation.

Leaving the vet's, we brought back Pinky and Browny (I dropped them off yesterday morning to get declawed) and I feel soooo sad for them. They are still pretty out of it and super tired/drained PLUS, poor them, they have their front legs wrapped all the way up and they can't really walk the same right now. They keep trying to shake the bandages off and it just tires them out even more. I can't wait until the bandages come off and we can enjoy our declawed kitties!!! I just want to cuddle w/ them and make it all better --but I'm sure they're just fine . . .poor kitties . . .

I'm in the middle of a Yum-Yummies order. I'm waiting to hear from my customer. We are almost coming to the 'pick-up' time and he still hasn't confirmed the name on the cake!!! ahhhh!! I have a 'plan b' though -in case he just shows up to pick it up and still hasn't responded. OH! and to make things hairier --his phone is not letting calls go through right now!! :( So, he hasn't checked his email and I can't get a hold of him on his phone . . . I shall just wait . . .

Then, tonight, I have 24 red chili peppers to make and 48 maracas to make AND paint!!! woohoo, I'm having a party tonight!!

Chris gets to go to tonight's SPURS game . . . our neighbor won tickets on the radio yesterday morning and she invited him to join her. How super nice of her and how super nice for him!! hee hee. :D They'll have fun and, honestly, I'll have a fun time molding the toppers (it's a lot of fun for me . . . I love being crafty and creative!!), while Kryssa enjoys watching Snow Buddies! (Thanks Rachael!! :D )

what a night...

And then I'll work Wed., Thurs., Friday -daytime, w/ the kids and then in the evening, on the cupcake order (working on whatever I don't finish tonight, w/ the toppers) --and then I'm done w/ JLM (for now, at least. I don't know if there's more childcare for me in the future . . .) -for now, I'll focus on Yum-Yummies! :) So far, it's goin WAY better than I had hoped for --God is Awesome and everything is just falling into place. How exciting!!!

Oh, the stats on the pup: she weighs 10 lbs and the doc thinks she has some Corgi in her. He also thinks she won't pass 20lbs --we'll see!

have a wonderful evening!

April 25, 2008


I accidentally slept in past 10am! I don't know why I couldn't force myself to get up at 8am. I was a little bummed out when I realized the time...

Well, I have a lot on my agenda for today, mainly cleaning/house chores. I hope to vacuum the entire house, clean the cat box, clean the hard floors, finally finish the laundry to the 'T', mow the back yard and maybe even plant some flowers... Now, realistically speaking, I'll probably vacuum, clean the cat box, do some laundry, and clean some of the hard floors.

April 23, 2008

We are giving it a try. (trial period)

I think it's going to go very very well. She is the BEST dog I have EVER had --even the dog that I loved and raised, growing up at home, wasn't THIS good!!!

Kryssa has named her Duchess (from AristoCats). She is soooo sweet and loves to cuddle --or just sit and watch. she isnt' super hyper and she is getting used to the cats. hee hee ;)

I'll posts pics soon . . . I've done a lot of thinking --and the pros really outweighed the cons. :)

she's sound asleep already --what a wonderful first couple of hours it's been. Let's see how it continues . . .


April 21, 2008


**Just so you know, this blog is quite longer than usual . . . if you don't make it all the way through, please, at least jump down to the bottom, what's in bold, and respond and share your input --at least for that section. Please and thank you. :)

I told a couple of you that I would blog --so that I don't repeat myself, explaining one of my 'status messages' (said something like "just found some news out and now I have a LOT to think about . . .")

So, I normally blog about our ttc updates because stuff in our daily life had basically been staying the same. Not personally -like we haven't just been zombies -- we were just having a steady, constant, flow of regularity (does that make sense?!) And also, there are just some things I choose not to blog about. :) My point, now I have something to blog about, an update of our daily lives . . . what goes on. :)

A lot of things are happening; seems like they are 'lay low' issues, happening 'under the radar'. Meaning that they impact our lives suddenly and very gradually --at the same time!! ha ha. So, confusing, it seems. As I'm typing this, I'm thinking "this makes no sense what so ever!!!" ha ha. But it's the way it seems to me . . . and a lot needs to be thought out in order to make some sense of it --decisions/solutions.

The day I changed my status, that mentioned some "news", it was the day I got word that the kids I currently watch will soon be staying home w/ their mom. Which I am really excited for the family because I really enjoying being home w/ Kryssa and soaking up alllll the mommy moments, you know?! Plus, as a mom, when you want to be at home w/ your kids and finally get the opportunity to do so, it's a VERY rewarding and a life changing, exciting moment!! So, my joy went out to the family. THEN I sat there, after the phone conversation, and so many other thoughts started to swirl in . . . "I'm really going to miss not seeing them as much as I do right now.", "not having that extra income will make a difference", "Kryssa's going to miss having company/playmates 3 times a week", "it's been great, overwhelming, rewarding all in one package . . . but what now?!", "Oh, well, this will give me more time to focus on Yum-Yummies!" (if we could 'open shop' by the end of this year, early next year, that would be AMAZING!!!) . . . so, I had a LOT on my mind. But then I realized that it was a God sent in one area (that I can see right now): I had accepted a 5 dz. order for the 28th and I had planned on just starting the order Thursday evening (after the work day) and working all the way through, until I finished, and then just pump myself w/ caffeine to work at 8am Friday morning. Plus, I was going to see if my FIL could delivery the order --seeing how I would be working all day Friday w/ the kids. SO . . . as I sat and stared at my calendar, it hit me that it was one of God's ways to show me that when I trust Him in my time of "what do I do", "all things are possible" and just work out well!! :D Seeing how that came together just right (oh, the reason it all worked out is because, in that same phone conversation, I found out that I would be off all this week.) it made me feel quite a bit better that God is fully in control of my businesses (I do constantly thank God for what I do). I started to see that as much as I will miss what I do w/ the kids, God has a perfect way of closing one door to lead you through another. So, now I'm pretty excited to see what God has for me next --I'm really wondering if the cupcake shop will happen sooner than expected . . . who knows!

Now, I'm off all week and have plenty of time to work and plan out this cupcake order . . . and then I will get to be w/ the kids one more week --and then we'll just have to plan some visits here and there w/ them! -to keep in touch. :)

You know, I was watching Joel Olsteen Yesterday, I'm just realizing this, what I'm about to share, and in his message, he was talking about how God has a perfect way of preparing you for what's going to come --and we are so clueless to the impact of a situation sometimes (just like my thought I have as my headline: ""Even though things don't always seem to go the way we would like them to . . . what if the impact of a situation is much greater than the requested miracle itself?!"). So, he went on to say that they sold a house and then later got sued by the buyer because of some sewage damage or something. He explained how he was soooo stressed, even though he knew that it wasn't his fault and that he wasn't going to be responsible for the damages . . . he said that it went on for months and months and months and he just couldn't focus sometimes because how heavy the stress was. Well, eventually the lawsuit ended and, as he knew, he wasn't responsible. BUT it wasn't until later when he realized why he was supposed to go through all that drama/mess --he goes on to say that as they were trying to purchase the building, that they are currently in, there was a lawsuit against him -fighting for him NOT to get that building. He said that because he had already been through a 'nonsense' lawsuit, he was not stressed, nervous, or in any way uncomfortable throughout the church building lawsuit --but it's because he had already experience all those emotions during the first lawsuit dealing w/ his house. ...but if he wouldn't have gone through the first bogus lawsuit, he would have felt 'unsure', overwhelmed and stressed about the church building lawsuit. So all in all he explained how God was preparing him for something so much greater. SO, I am now realizing that when I was on vacation for 3 months, I didn't know what to do w/ my time sometimes and then I wondered why in the world I was able to get such a long 'break' from working. I mean, I really enjoyed it --so much that I wondered what life would be if I went back to not working childcare (not that I don't like it or whatever --I just wondered how it would be for life to stay that way --on vacation, I guess.) I would ask myself if i felt that I had learned my lesson on procrastinating and just being lazy w/ my time. I mean, don't get me wrong, when I have something to do as a mother, I get it done. Kryssa is a top priority when it comes to being a Full Time Mom during the day. But when it comes to housework and organizing, I, almost always, wait until the last minute to get things done. I can't stand that about myself and I've always tried to find ways to make that different. **I do realize that this blog is going on and on and if you are still reading at this point --wow, you must be one good friend . . . to care enough about what 'goes' in my mind, heart, life and so on. :) pls let me know who you are -because I sure appreciate you taking the time to hear me out!** So, I do have a point .. ha ha . . . I am starting to realize now that God gave me a practice period, of 3 months, to prepare myself and learn how to prioritize better for what would happen 4 weeks later (4 weeks after starting back up, after my vacation, I will be back to just being a MOM --no more home childcare.). I had no idea, of course. But I am now in awe of the way He just works every thing . . . EVERY THING out!! -and how He's prepared me mentally, emotionally for what's about to happen. I have known that and seen some works and heard it all my life, about how God always works everything out, according to His will, for the Good- for as long as I can remember. But to have an impact such as this one, where it's once again revealed to me in MY life --it's such a confirmation in so many ways. (for those of you who knew what my life was -back in '07, the Trials, tests and challenges, I went through/decisions I faced- that was just another GREAT example to me of GOD's work in my life. I don't know the exact moment that I could 'breathe' again --all I know is that it ALL worked out for the Good. in all those moments of being faced w/ the most important decisions I had EVER been faced with, trusting God and just waiting was all I could do. "Be still" is what gave me peace . . . I knew that whatever decision was made there would be life changing results --it was one of the hardest things that I have ever EVER faced -but here I am in awe, times a thousand!!! I feel that I'm in another "be still moment --wondering what I will do w/ no home childcare after May 2nd. So, I know that this "be still" moment --where a lot is changing right now in my life (not just w/ my businesses)-- is just prepping me for the next phase of my life . . . another chapter of my life (like all that took place in '07 . . . it broke me down and built me back quite differently, ready to face what's ahead.

I guess that in writing this blog, I've found more peace in all that I'm facing right now in my life . . .

Business w/ Yum-Yummies is still going steady and I'm excited to see what more I can do w/ more time during the week . . . (starting in may)

Some fun stuff to share, if you don't already know, is that my FIL bought me a Tilt. I really really like it a LOT!! hee hee. i've never had a smart phone and it's a lot of fun learning everything on it. My new number is (210) 268-3244. I have unlimited texts so that would be the best way to get ahold of me right now --we all share minutes and I DON'T want to be the cause to paying for going over on mins -ha ha. I did that on our last plan . . . :(

I know that this blog is already super duper long --BUT the last thing I want to share --and really really want your input on-- is that there is a puppy up for grabs and we are really considering adopting it. I know, I know!! We just recently had to re-home Skylar. BUT everything about adopting this puppy is so different from when we adopted Skylar. It's a MUCH smaller dog and seeing how I won't be working 30hrs weekly anymore I know that we would now have the time to care for the pup . . . I'm just asking for everyone's input on pros and cons. We have our list and I'm just really trying to be wise about this decision . . .

thanks a bunch!!

April 19, 2008

one sink or two?

Big decision . . .

Chris is at Home Depot and I'm here at home. I just hung up w/ him -trying to decide which to get: A double sink that is 8 1/4 in. deep and one bowl is longer than the other OR a single bowl sink that is 8 1/4 in. deep . . .

So, I'm back...we decided on the double bowl sink. He's finally home and I'm super excited to see a new sink in our kitchen!! He even bought a new faucet set where the spout pulls out to a sprayer and there is a built-in soap dispenser! (I do know that it will probably not happen this weekend

April 16, 2008

Twizzlers, popcorn, and late night movies

I arrived here in Killeen last night around 10:30pm. The drive was nice hill country roads, dark and seemed to never end...

Last night, me and my roomie stayed up until 2am chit chatting!! Geez! and then I had to wake up at 6am and be at the training by 7:30am -it's just right down the road from our hotel

we were "molded" and flooded out!

Oh boy!!! What an experience training was. ABSOLUTELY AMAZING!!!

a little about our trip to Maui

So, once again, I didn't blog soon enough to remember what I would have like to share . . . So, today is April 16th and I'm sorry it took this long to share the little bit that I remembered. So, it just kind of stops at the end --because I never came back to it. But I figured I would publish it finally -for those of you who had been asking. I've probably told you more stories about our trip in person than this blog would let you know . . .

Okay, so before too much time passes, I need to blog a bit about Hawaii . . .

we woke up Saturday, March 1st, well I slept until 9:30am and our day started. It was the day before we were to leave and he started our packing! shame on us, I know. ha ha ;) Well, no only did I need to get my packing done, I promised a Yum-Yummies cake to a friend of mine, for her bday (since we weren't even going to be in town to celebrate w/ her!).

Not only did I still need to pack for myself AND Kryssa, and bake and decorate a cake, I still needing to finish my shopping!!! lol, yes, I am a procrastinator -w/out an excuse. I just tend to work better under pressure, for some reason. Well, i just needed to purchase a couple of last minute items --and several hundred dollars later, again *ashamed* I finally returned back home, (even thought I had already spent waaaayyy too much money two days before . . . ) ready to start packing . . .

So, I whipped up the cake and put it in the oven. Then I packed a little until the cake needed to come out. I took the cake out and set it aside to cool -then I went and packed some more. my parents came over some time w/in all that craziness. We enjoyed a meal with them (or, chris did, while I packed away) -I whipped up the frosting and back to more packing. then they took kryssa for HER mini vacation w/ grandma and grandpa . . . it all hit me at that moment -that I wouldn't see her again until FRIDAY!! that's a long time for me . . . well, off they went and time for me to frost and decorate the cake!! We finally delivered the cake at around 8:30pm or so. THEN back home to finish packing!! ha ha . . . I finished packing at around 1am and then jumped in the shower. Chris had already showered and was snoozing by this point. Done showering and ready to do my toenails! LOL, I had to beautify myself for Hawaii, right?! Who cares about sleep . . . I'll get sleep . . . eventually!! After my pedicure, I had to wax up (I do my own waxing -which is really convenient when I need to get it done at 2:30am!!) -OUCH!!!

Jesse, our best friend, our ride to the airport, called -and woke chris up at 3:15am (right on schedule). I rush to get dressed -didn't need to do my hair since I was going to be traveling for 10 hrs- as chris and jess pack up the car. A quick run through to see if we got everything and out the door we go!!! So excited -and VERY nervous.

For some reason, at the last minute, before leaving the house I spray my body spray and toss it in my 'carry-on' bag . . . BIG MISTAKE!! I had no sleep and just wasn't thinking. Because everything else that I had been packing -I MADE SURE to stick to the 3oz liquid rule. :( Well, we pass through the bag check and I was asked to step aside. I thought I was going to be randomly, thoroughly, checked -but no. The lady pulled out my lotion and said it was good, pulled out my contact solution and said it was good . . . then pulled out my full-size, bath&body work, body spray and said it was the problem. I could have bonked myself on the head when I realized what I had done . . . she said I could go back out and HOPE that my luggage was still accessible. She walked me 'out' and off I went. Sadly, my luggage had already been sent off. I HAD TO THROUGH MY BODY SPRAY!!!!!! :( sniffle. I couldn't believe it! I sprayed up w/ it and then chunked it before passing through 'bag check' again. That spray was part of a bday gift from my sis. the sent was 'dancing waters' --a limited edition/seasonal scent. who knows if and when it will be available to purchase again . . . .AH, HOW SAD!!

Anyway, we wait for the food court to open and we ended up being paged to board the plane -it loaded a little before the time we expected and there we were, speeding down to our terminal w/ our food and carry-ons --how entertaining, I'm sure!! ha ha

So, to shorten this up a bit: i located my 'vomit baggy' and i'm set for take off!! ha ha (seriously, though --just in case. cause i get motion sick quite easily . . . ) during the flight, the sweetest compliment was given to us --well, a question in a compliment form: the flight attendant passed to offer drinks and asked us, w/ a big smile and a tinkle in her eye "y'all on your honeymoon?" --hee hee, we looked at each other and gave a huge grin and replied "No, going on 6 yrs of marriage." She mentioned that we look like we just got married or something . . . hee hee! Yay! I'll take that any time!!

We watched August rush on our second flight . . . I didn't get much sleep at all . . . 10 mins here and there. Everyone was right: don't plan on sleeping on the plane. It's just so uncomfortable and you won't really get sleep.

Day 1:

Arrive to pick up luggage and get greeted w/ a beautiful fresh lei.
check in to resort and are blown away w/ the first view -while stepping out of the vehicle. I started crying -due to the BEAUTY!! and thankfulness!!
Day 1 was a 'me and chris' day, entirely. the majority of WaMu peeps were scheduled to arrive the next day (when all the WaMu events would start)

Day 2: Evening welcome ceremony in the evening -luau, buffet, and an awesome show of cultural dancing. :D
we rented/reserved a kayak and then went to purchase water shoes. by the time we got back to our room, ate lunch, changed and covered ourselves w/ sunscreen, and walked back to the beach to get our kayak, we were informed that we wouldn't get the full hour that we paid for because they were closing in 40 mins! we never bothered to ask what time they closed and no one every bothered to inform us either! Grr . . . So, we canceled and said we'd go back the following day. ha ha

We thought to still enjoy the beach and water -since we took so much time getting ready for sun and water . . . but one touch of that COLD ocean water and back we went. LOL we were cracking up the whole way because we are such wimps when it comes to cold water!! ha ha.

Instead, we went to enjoy the serenity pool. it's a very nice, peaceful area. :) the water wasn't as warm as we would have liked it to be BUT we forced ourselves to get in and enjoy it.

Day 3: Group breakfast -yummy fruit, once again!!!!! Amazing weather and views . . .
WaMu "leadership session" --boring but I went to

All that and it didn’t even last long! (ttc update)

So, I kept my appointment after all, w/ Dr. Ruiz. I was having some "issues" still -aside from the 2 week delay.

Well, it turns out that the polycystic (sp?) ovaries are back. :( I wasn't expecting to see and hear that this soon. I just had the surgery in January and it's only April!!! And the most frustrating part is that it's not just one or two --NO! There are approx. 5+ on each!! :( To look on the bright side: it's better than the 20+ the doc had to remove (the surgery in Jan.) from EACH --compared to that 5+ is not bad at all, huh?! Also, some other "good" news I will focus on is that I still don't have to get back on the fertility meds -yet- (he said to give it until June -as long as everything else stays regular) AND my "baby carrier", lol (uterus), appears healthy. So, God willing everything stays as uncomplicated as this. Oh, and the other "issues" that occurred were due to a cyst rupturing (according to Dr. Ruiz --assumed by the pain and 'issues' I described).

It's been a LONG road . . . and apparently more to come --But as I often hear, "just take it one day at a time" --easier said than done; but it sure seems to be getting easier. I mentioned to Chris yesterday, "I wonder if it's hard at first and then gets a little easier but then gets hard again -as more time passes- and then easy again . . ." Like a cycle. The way I see it: At first it came as a shock and each negative was another heartache over the previous heart ache that didn't have enough time to heal. But then because there have been so many negatives and my emotions have emptied -then the next negatives and not-so-good news doesn't ache AS much. So, that is when it's "not so hard". But then who knows how many more negatives and not-so-good news I can handle before it starts feeling emotionally overwhelming again . . . and then after I pass all that, it becomes a temporary norm to where it doesn't affect me as much. See the pattern? I don't know if it makes sense. But I know I can't let myself be depressed and emotionally drained every day for the year and some months that it has been going on. We are making it and focusing on 'other' things/goals -Like taking Kryssa to Disney World in December. If I get pregnant before then, who knows if I will get an 'okay' to travel. So, for now, we are focused on going for sure. Oh, and I still have hopes to lose some weight before pregnancy -so I better get to it, huh?! ha ha ha ha ;)

So, that's the most recent update. I know it gets a little personal and sometimes, for some, it might be a little TMI --but It is my blog and it is what's going on . . .

So, as much as it is easier said than done, I have set my mind to TRY not to count out all those "Day twelves, fourteens, and sixteens" just the Day 1 and Day 28 -to make sure I stay "working" -ha ha. Maybe that would be the equivalent to 'not trying'?! You know how it's said that conception tends to happen when 'you' aren't "trying" . . . so we'll see.

Thanks for all the support and 'girly' chit-chat/'gal time'. It's a great get away and stress reliever from the day-to-day thoughts and emotions.

Until next time . . .

April 8, 2008

I've been asked for an update

So, our weekend was GREAT!! we went to houston --san leon, tx-- and visited w/ family and spent time w/ the babies!! yay! I plan on posting photos from our trip to Houston -we had a BLAST!! Yesterday, we spent the whole day at Kemah Boardwalk . . . rides, rides, rides, shopping, shopping, eating, and then more rides!! ha ha :) Everyone had a really great time (we all did what we enjoyed).

Last week was my first week back at work and it went very well. I’m still getting used to working around the infant’s schedule -but for the most part, nothing really seemed to change all that much . . . I’m still getting the hang of his schedule and cries (what they really mean). It’s a TON-O-FUN!!! :D I really am thankful and feel blessed to be doing what I do. :) 3 days a week, I get to enjoy the company of a 7, 3, and 2 year old AND a 2 month old!!! -Keeps me pretty busy, on my ’work’ days; a little hectic and crazy sometimes, but at the end of the day, it really is all worth it! :D

TTC update: I ended up just being 2 wks late :( Why? I have NO idea?! But I guess it’s better than finding out that my body just stopped working again . . . Because as long as everything is working well, I really shouldn’t complain, right? :.. So, I will be canceling my appointment. Maybe April will be our month . . . ;)