September 14, 2012

Blocked tubes

Yesterday's Saline Ultrasound showed that my tubes are completely blocked.  I thought it was going to be a set back for our first IVF cycle, set for October, but it turned out to be exactly what they were hoping for....huh?!

Before my appointment, I had posted on facebook, "praying for open tubes".   All this time that we've been trying to conceive, we knew that open fallopian tubes were very important (unfortunately, little did we know that they are completely blocked.).  However, what I understood is that open tubes could actually present more complications that could prevent the embryo from implanting properly (for example, an ectopic pregnancy, or just not even implanting at all).  It's hard to believe that blocked tubes is actually good news...

The Saline Ultrasound itself was much more uncomfortable than I expected.  I assumed it would feel similar to the insertion of an IUD.  However, it felt as though she was swirling the tube around in there (like twirling a lollipop stick or twirling an umbrella), scraping the inside of my uterus!  I was able to control the cringing and the "ouch!" comments —all except one excruciatingly painful moment, I cringed and let out a loud "oooh! That really hurts!".  I have to mentally prepare myself to confidently and willingly go back for the actual embryo transfer —although, maybe they sedate the patient for the actual transfer?  I'll have to find that out.

The next thing I have to do is order THE MEDS...whaaa??  Already??  EEEEK!!!  I still just can't believe this... and then we have our IVF class on Tuesday (and we'll also sign our consent forms that day).  I wish it was guaranteed, that after all these years of trying, hoping, and waiting, and these weeks to come of injections, discomfort, pain, crazy emotions, sedation, hoping, and waiting, that we would definitely get a baby... Only God knows our future.

Your prayers are much appreciated and very much needed.  Thank you, thank you, thank you!! :)


  1. That's good news! A friend once mentioned to me that sometimes we pray for God's Will to be done in a situation, but when it comes down to Him actually answering our prayer, His will is soooo much more awesome that what we had in mind. Our minds' idea of great is miniscule compared to His idea of greatness. I will keep praying for HIS idea of greatness for you and your family's journey through this. As always, stay encouraged, and thank you for the update.

  2. Mallory, thank you for your continuous support, prayers, and words of encouragement. It's always helpful to have such wonderful support during this time because, way too often, it's easier to fall into the "why me" part of the journey. But being able to look back at the support and encouraging words truly help —more than many will ever know. So, once again, from the bottom of my heart, Thank You! :)