September 8, 2012

I'm shouting from the rooftops!

I am ecstatic . . . no, beyond ecstatic!!!  Chris and I had been thinking and thinking about how we could possibly afford the $3,469.24 for the IVF meds that weren't covered by our insurance.  We were told that everything except the injections would be covered.  So, injections alone were super expensive.  I had been so bummed out.  Every time Chris and I would talk about IVF, I felt like it was still so out of reach, even though it was "set" for October.  I kept thinking that we would have to work really really hard AND wait for our next tax return OR use one of Chris's quarterly bonuses to cover the cost.  I just kept praying and praying that somehow insurance would happen to cover most, or at the very least some, of the cost.  Yes, I realize that we are very "lucky", blessed, to have insurance that covers the treatment cost AND even covers some of our IVF meds —but still it was going to be a huge obstacle to come up with $3,400+ by the end of this month.

So, after hearing that the injections needed a 'prior authorization', I felt that there was some kind of hope —still.  So, we waited to hear if they would be approved or not...

Last week, I had a very REAL dream that I was happily announcing to family and friends that we were in fact starting IVF in October!  So, when I woke up, I realized that in the dream there were no "ifs" about IVF.  We knew we were starting; meaning that somehow the IVF meds were NOT an issue.  I had been so confused as to what could possibly take place between that dream and the end of the month.  I kept praying and reminding myself to FULLY trust God.  I even broke down the other night, completely balling, full of emotion, begging God to bless us with another child "somehow"...

Today, I wake up and reach for my phone.  I immediately noticed an email from my fertility center with the subject "meds".  I quickly read through it... and then read through it again...and even a third time.  I stopped and made sure I wasn't dreaming.  I remember feeling like I was numb and shocked and completely lost my breathe.  The email was very short:  "...I just got off the phone with your insurance company and they approved the [injections] for one year...".  I was immediately filled with joy and felt as if I was literally floating!  I still can't believe this is real!  I am truly in awe and amazed with how God is blessing us through this journey.  Something that, just a few days ago, seemed SO far from reality is so real today.  This is really happening!!  Wow.  Thank you Lord for the wonderful wonderful blessings!!!

I was hesitant to shout it from the rooftops (ie facebook and my blog) all day today because I still don't have the grand total to see how much less our total is.  BUT I just can't hold it in any longer.  Whatever our new total is, I still feel incredibly blessed to know that most, if not all, of our injections have been approved for an entire year (God willing, we will only need one IVF cycle).

So, this is real to us now.  We are really getting closer and closer to IVF . . . to possibly conceiving our second baby.  (I still tear up every time reality hits).  Thank you God!!!!

Once again, thank you for all the prayers and support.

*quick appointment update:
Sept. 13th, 9:15am —Saline Ultrasound and Practice Embryo Transfer
Sept. 18th, 1pm —IVF Class

I'll update again soon! :)


  1. Praise God. I look forward to this journey with you.

  2. @Chris:

    Well, I sure hope so! ;) I love you, hun!

  3. @Josie:

    Thanks! You ready to stick it out with me even with the emotions and the tears? ;)