I hadn't really been nervous, since I woke up this morning. I enjoyed my birthday and even when I would think of tonight's injections, I wouldn't cringe and my stomach wouldn't turn... until about 5pm or so. By 8:30pm, I knew that I was only a few hours away from getting the injections. We got home and had to get straight to business. Chris watched the instructional videos, as a refresher course, since our class was two weeks ago. I sat on the couch, next to him, icing my belly with a Finding Nemo ice pack. I had hoped that using a cute ice pack would make me feel less nervous...ha!!!
When it was time for the prick, I just stared at him. I didn't know how I felt exactly. I was nervous. I was scared. I knew it would just be a prick and be over —but it was the bigger picture. "Here we go! We are starting IVF. This is real and it is happening right now!. Once you start, you can't change your mind... we are in it till the end..." I couldn't help it. I'm a "deep thinker". He stared back and me and smiled, saying "Everything is going to be okay, hun.". The only thing I could say was, "can we pray together, first?". I love my husband! He set everything down and prayed. Of course, I cried a little. And then I felt much better. I had peace and I had been comforted in the best way possible —praying with my love.
I sat on my hands, so that I wouldn't do anything that caused him to hurt me even worse. I closed my eyes and rested my head back, on the couch. I let him do everything —I didn't even want to have to pinch my belly for the prick. The first injection was Follistim. I didn't feel the prick. I barely felt a sting. I was happy! :) One down, one more to go... next was Menopur. As he was mixing the liquid with the powder, I iced the other side of my belly (we were told to alternate the injection sites). I felt the needle go in and then I felt the NASTY burning sensation. UGH! That one really burned —felt very tight, like the fluid had absolutely no where to go but still managed to squeeeeeze and puuuuuush its way through my tissue.
Strangely enough, the Follistim did not hurt while happening —but it stayed super sore afterwards. Whereas the Menopur hurt the worst while happening —but did not feel as sensitive as the other site.
Day one of injections in done. I am very proud of my hubby —and super thankful that he is so gentle with his touch and his words.
|How I spent my bday night...|