July 28, 2012

If only I knew the future

Today was *officially* CD28, 13dpo.  I have been following the calendar and all of my 'charting signs', the best that I know how, waiting for this day.  I don't have any of my regular cycle symptoms.  That could be great news —maybe I'm finally pregnant.  And that could be bad news —my cycle might have gone on vacation and my ovaries have fallen into a deeeeep sleep again.  I have two completely different paths that I'm anxious to take: if I'm pregnant, well, we've been wanting this since 2007.  If I'm not pregnant, then I need Day3 to get here as soon as it possibly can because that is when I go for the blood work that tells me how my ovaries are working, if I have any eggs (hopefully I DO!), and all the other details to determine if we can start IVF...

My thoughts speed through my head 100wpm.  I need some answers.  I need a plan.  I need something to focus my mind on.  yes, yes, I know, "focus on God".  Trust me, I've been doing that all these years —how else do you think I have even made it this far.  :)

So, 13dpo gave me a negative hpt.

Let's see what tomorrow brings...


  1. You and your family have been in my thoughts and prayers a lot lately. Thanks (again) for your bravery in sharing this journey. I've also been wanting to ask you if you would like to go for coffee or something sometime soon! I'd love to spend a little time with you. Just let me know if you would be interested. Hope ya'll have a great day! :)

  2. Hi Mal :)

    Again, thanks so much for keeping us in your thoughts and prayers!

    Getting together sounds nice. I'll contact you through facebook. :)