I had an appointment with my doc this morning. Took another pt --negative (which I had already prepared myself for). Even he said that when he saw me walk in, he thought to himself, "Hey! I hope she's pregnant!!" So, he was actually empathetic . . . he is a very kind-hearted person. I love that he is my doc.
Well, I told him I am ready to try clomid again. He agreed it was time to get back on it. He said that I will start provera today and then clomid on days 5-9 get my blood work on day 21 and see him 6 wks from today. I remember the very interesting Clomid lifestyle. Everything revolves around "what day it is" (first you look forward to day 10 of provera, the last provera pill before you hope to get a cycle. Then day 1 is a big excitement. You get excited for day 5, first clomid pill, and for day 9, last clomid pill for that cyle (which you pray is your last one ever!). Then you hope that day 14 went as planned (ovulation day). The most anticipated day, for us, has always been, 21 --the day you go in to get your blood drawn to check if you actually ovulated (last time I never ever did. But I'm praying for different results this time around!). After you get your results (normally the next business day or so) -if it shows you ovulated then you wait ANOTHER week to take a hpt. if it showed you didn't ovulate, then you just start alllll over again. That's one way to look back at your life and wonder where it all went --so busy charting everything and looking forward to all these different days, you can forget how to enjoy each and every day you are given with the family you are blessed with. I think, since I've already excperienced some life on Clomid, that I'm ready to stay focused differently through it all.
This time, however, the doc says that we will "tackle" it. We have to start off slowly --we can't just start back up where we left off (we were about to triple the dose). But instead of several rounds of a single dose, and then several rounds of a double does, he said that we will do one round of single --if that doesn't work we will double the 2nd round and if that doesn't work we will triple the next round and so forth. Now, I don't know how many times we will be adding up doses because I do know that that higher the dose the higher the chances for multiples... *I did used to pray for twins --since I was 6 years old . . . all the way to . . . now ::blush:: --call me crazy, that's okay ;) After trying clomid, if it is unsuccessful, he said he would refer me to a local fertility clinic to start IVF (we found out our insurance covers up to a certain amount --so we at least aren't limited to just clomid). I'm praying that 'plan B' (clomid) will be enough to conceive . . . hopefully still in 2010. If not this year, then God willing, at least in 2011. :)
So, when I called Chris, I basically warned him . . . here comes the "crazy"! lol I remember how nuts the whirlwind of hormones made me feel. I think I at least know what to expect a bit more this time though --plus, maybe the "crazy" from Lupron is nothing compared to the "crazy" of Clomid... I'll try to blog updates for anyone interested. :)