Clomid: round 3 in 2010 (150mg)

Round three is over and done with (12/29/10 — 1/2/10).  Phew!  Yay!!  Wooohooo! . . . Okay, I just *had* to celebrate.  Today is Day 11 for me.  So far, round 3 tops them all (even the rounds in 2008).  Hot flashes, nausea, headaches, insomnia . . . I really, truly, with all my might, hope that we conceive this month.

KJ, almost every week, several times a week, talks about how she "really" wants a little baby sister (and sometimes she even says she wants a brother).  It's not all that simple for a six year old to understand why it's, in her words, "taking so long!".  haha.  People we know are not only getting pregnant, having babies . . . they're even getting pregnant again and even delivering the next baby!! --all while we try for number two.  So, KJ thinks it's supposed to just happen (ha... don't we all?!)

I'm really getting my hopes up at this point and it's a bit concerning because, emotionally, I might be getting close to my limit, my breaking point.  I just have to continue to trust God, trust His timing, and also trust myself to know when 'enough is enough' again.  The thought of another chapter of our lives where we try and don't conceive is just too hard to swallow right now.  I tell myself to just keep pushing --a little harder . . . just one more round . . . just one more month.  This month has been the absolute toughest.  :(

I'm ready for some joy (in the ttc area of our lives).  I've had dreams of being pregnant and others of getting a positive hpt reading.  KJ has even had a dream that I had twins!!  haha that would truly be a miracle!! (I've prayed for twins since I was 7 years old or so)

I welcome 2011 with an open mind and heart.  I'm focusing on all the wonderful blessings in my life... life must go on.  :)

I want a hippopotamus for Christmas

Christmas has come and gone . . . and not a single post from me.  :(  Shame, Shame!

I finally made the shirt I wanted for Christmas 2009 (something similar to what I had wanted)
What I would have loved to have:

 

What I was able to make at the last minute:

KJ's Shirt

What I would have loved to be able to make:

What I was able to make for her at the last minute:

 

(she lost her two front bottom teeth at the right time of the year --to really enjoy it!)

We had a wonderful Christmas!

Clomid: round 2 in 2010 (100mg)

I'm done with this round.  I have mixed feeling about it all.  For some reason, I just wasn't really thinking, I took my first dose of Clomid on Day 1 instead of Day 5.  So, I spoke with the nurse and she said to stop and wait until Day 5 —to just take the remaining 4 doses (instead of a total of five).  So, a part of me feels that "if it's meant to be it will be"; however, a part of me feels that I really messed up my chance for this cycle...like a wasted cycle...a waste of trying!  :(  BUT . . . I trust God and I'm doing my best to stay focused on other things.  It told myself to stop marking every little thing down and to stop counting every single day that goes by.  I don't have a count down this month.  It's actually gone by a bit faster —either because there are so many other things going on, or because NOT counting every single day is working.  :)

It hit me yesterday . . . how it feels as though everyone around me is preggo —which I know is not true, but if it's not a newly born baby update it's a preggo update.  I love them, I do!  It's my chance to be reminded of all the little details.  I think I had just brushed it off for long enough and yesterday was the day it just hit home.

I have to remind myself though that I'm in the middle of a WONDERFUL thing —to expand our family through Fostering to Adopt.  I have to just keep moving forward because in as little as 3 months, we could be a family of four! :)  I joke with Chris, saying, "I bet once we get [her] that we'll soon end up pregnant!  It just works that way, right?!" lol

I'm looking forward for the rest of the month and I'll have plenty to update next time I blog.

Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, Happy Holidays...

First round of clomid in 2010: Day 24

Even though it's "technically" day 24, according to 'the signs', it's more like Day 18 or so.  It's really confusing.  :(

I didn't get a chance to go get my progesterone check on day 21.  So, I'm just going to take a hpt on Nov. 15th and/or on Nov. 21.  I have my next appointment on the 19th of November —so now thinking about it, they will do a test then.  :)  (saves me a test strip!! hee hee)

Every time I've looked up other peoples' experience(s) while on Provera, the majority says NOT to start counting Day 1 with spotting.  However, my doc was very specific when he said to start counting day 1 with the slightest sign of spotting . . . strange.  So, it's super confusing because my "days" say one thing but my body says another.  I had NO signs of ovulation around the days my doc told me to count.  So, I don't know what to expect.  Maybe it's a good thing?  Give me more hope than just going according to the days my doc told me to count (because it would probably not show a change in hormones on that day 21).

I am, however, ready for all the fatigue, aches, and soreness to go away already!  yay for good signs of ovulation . . . those are good signs, right? (from what I read...)

TTC update

Day 10!  I survived the first round of Clomid.  :)

side effects were manageable; although, I'm not too sure how Chris and KJ felt about dealing with me during the last 16 days...

What I experienced:
On Provera
Super sleepy --as in falling asleep sitting up and NEEDING to nap!, nausea, serious acne ::ugh!::, dizziness, ''the shakes'' --from an anxious nervous feeling, and a nasty pain in the pit of my stomach --not wanting to eat very much because of it (and from the nausea)

Clomid:  headaches (right side of my head only -hurt like a migraine --which I haven't gotten in years.), mood swings (really irritable --could have been from PMS too though so who knows which is worse), random crying (for the most insignificant things I'd see and/or hear!!  -some times, I just ''felt'' a lump in my throat/a need to cry...haha it's been interesting!!, fatigue (not nearly as extreme as the drowsiness during provera), and some serious hot flashes (which reminded me how thankful I am to be off of Lupron!!)

I think my body will get a small experience of 'normalcy' (whatever that means) for the next 11 days or so (except for nerves and anxiety of waiting for day 21 --progesterone check, a.k.a. blood work to see if I ovulated (if the clomid did its job))


11 more days . . .  :D