January 31, 2011
What is it? . . . fourth time's a charm?! Yeah, that's it!
So far, the last cycle and this cycle of Clomid, right around the third and fourth day, I start with the "I might be ready to stop the Clomid. I don't know if I want to continue with these side affects..." (insomnia, hot and cold flashes, dizzy spells/light headed, irritability... lately, the insomnia with the hot and cold flashes, combined, has been the worst for me -because then I wake up feeling like I only slept for 15 mins...then I'm irritable...lol it's a nasty cycle [but almost over!]). Now that I know it's just those two days, out of only five, I can mentally push myself to make it to day five --because then I get super excited. So, today, I'm telling myself, "okay, after tonight's dose, I'll only have one more dose . . . you can do it Michelle!! It's so worth it! Just one more day . . . just one more day...". Every tear, hot flash, and mood swing reminds me to think towards the future --of possibly conceiving. I love my dear husband, how well he loves me through my tears, mood swings, and hot flashes. I know God is blessing our marriage through all of this. I am so in love with him. My 'love tank' is definitely full. :) Praise God. (I pray his is too...)
I'm starting to feel a bit repetitive with these ttc updates. I just might have some posts here and there with a quick and straight to the point post: "NOT PREGNANT YET..."
So, until approx, Day 22 or 23 (after my next progesterone check).
Happy [Baby] Trials to you! ;)