June 7, 2011

Canceled appointment

As sad as I am to post this . . . I figured an update is due.

I started my 'day 1' yesterday. [moment of silence]  I literally balled my eyes out.  It's been a long time since something like that has bothered me that much.  I immediately sent a text to Chris —hoping he would call and help me focus on the positive (sometimes I just can't do it alone).  He didn't respond in any way. ((sad face))  Next, I sent a text to the only other person I could think of that could totally relate and possibly help me shake it off and laugh again.  Sure enough!  :)  I told her how I was planning on hiding out in the bathroom for a while . . . just to cry it out —alone.  Her response, " . . .the bathroom rug is always a good spot to curl up.  Just don't get a hairball from all the long hairs that you leave on there :) ".  Her sense of humor was just what I needed  :)  Thank you!!

So, I had to cancel my appointment that was scheduled for today.  It is pointless for me to go in just to hear that the test is negative, when I already know that conception did not occur.  I don't think he would have done a sono because my body is working just fine ;)  I do, however, wish that I could have gone to use their scale.  That's how I've been weighing myself (I have one here but I don't know how close it is to the one at the office).  Oh well, I have another month to drop some more pounds  ;)

I will start my next cycle of clomid this Friday...  Thank you everyone for all the love and support.  It's made these 13 months of ttc not so bad.  :)

later gator!

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