As sad as I am to post this . . . I figured an update is due.
I started my 'day 1' yesterday. [moment of silence] I literally balled my eyes out. It's been a long time since something like that has bothered me that much. I immediately sent a text to Chris —hoping he would call and help me focus on the positive (sometimes I just can't do it alone). He didn't respond in any way. ((sad face)) Next, I sent a text to the only other person I could think of that could totally relate and possibly help me shake it off and laugh again. Sure enough! :) I told her how I was planning on hiding out in the bathroom for a while . . . just to cry it out —alone. Her response, " . . .the bathroom rug is always a good spot to curl up. Just don't get a hairball from all the long hairs that you leave on there :) ". Her sense of humor was just what I needed :) Thank you!!
So, I had to cancel my appointment that was scheduled for today. It is pointless for me to go in just to hear that the test is negative, when I already know that conception did not occur. I don't think he would have done a sono because my body is working just fine ;) I do, however, wish that I could have gone to use their scale. That's how I've been weighing myself (I have one here but I don't know how close it is to the one at the office). Oh well, I have another month to drop some more pounds ;)
I will start my next cycle of clomid this Friday... Thank you everyone for all the love and support. It's made these 13 months of ttc not so bad. :)