Ovulation Success!!

I got the phone call yesterday . . . I OVULATED!!!!! (with taking 150mg of clomid -3rd round of clomid so far)  Praise God!  Now, I just have to wait to see if I get the even better news (of conceiving).

I didn't think that a phone call about ovulation would be that exciting —but it definitely was.  :)  Now, all I'm thinking about is "is there a there a little baby growing in there?!  I have an appointment on Friday and GOD WILLING I will have wonderful news.  Friday will be day 28 —so still really early but possibly enough time to see something on the sono (trans. vag.).  I just really really really want to see a blown up, bean shaped, uterus with a tiny tiny spec.  hahaha!  :)

I will keep you posted.

On a totally different note:
We are getting are home study done this Wednesday!! :D  We are super excited . . . nervous but really excited.  I have NO idea what to expect.  The case worker will interview me alone, KJ alone, Chris alone, and then Chris and I together (from what I understood).  So, God Willing, if everything goes well, Pickle could move in as early as the end of this month! :)

There was a last minute change of plans today = a day off for me! :)  I've been feeling under the weather so I'm not sure if I'll snuggle up in bed or clean out my closet... Will the caseworker look throughout our entire house?!  if so, I have some major tidying up to do.  hee hee  ;P

Be blessed and be a blessing!

Mommy of 2 . . . for the week.

This week, we have had the pleasure of having our future foster child (God willing) stay with us.  Chris has nicknamed her Pickle.  Why?  I honestly have no clue.  haha.  I think it's cute and she asked for a nickname from us and that is what Chris chose.  So, Pickle it is!  (for now at least)  :)

Pickle is 14 yrs old and attends a private school 20 miles away from where we live.  We picked her up on Tuesday, from her basketball game, and have been quite busy with KJ and Pickle's school schedules (homework for both and cheerleading and basketball for Pickle).  I've had a good taste of what it will be like taking each of them to school.  We've been leaving the house by 7am.  KJ has been getting to school by 7:15am and Pickle has been getting to school by 7:50-8:20am (traffic is soooooo crazy).  Then after school, KJ rides the bus and arrives by 3:15pm and then, most of this week, Pickle has been getting picked up from her basketball games around 7:30pm.  Our schedule changed drastically this week.  But I have to admit that I'm currently LOVING it!  KJ LOVES the company and Chris and I have really enjoyed seeing the two of them goof off and get on each others nerves.  lol  I know we won't always feel like this but I want to remember how this feels right now --how I long to have a bigger family and for KJ to have a sibling . . . so that when it gets overwhelming in the future, I remember how much I wanted and prayed for it.  :)

Our poor Pickle got injured yesterday.  :(  It was going to be our first time watching her cheer and when we got there she was being assisted in walking our way.  We all felt so bad for her --especially with how cute she looked in her uniform, face all red from crying, and all.  We pampered her with picking up Chili's to-go and some yummy treats from the store (and Ibuprofen too, of course --per her parents' orders).

I'm getting sad realizing that this week went by SOOOO quickly.  She goes back home on Sunday and we just wish she could stay forever already.  :(  It's been a long process and God knows how we've longed to even get to this point, where we are at.  In the beginning, it seemed like fostering/adopting would only happen in "our wildest dreams" but God has really had His hand in this and we are so blessed and thankful for this amazing opportunity.

God willing, she could move in as early as the end of this month.

Being so exhausted with the new schedule, I've been knocking out before 11pm (which is super early for me).  One night was even as early as 9pm!!  I really enjoy the deep sleep I've been getting.  Although, I still only sleep a few hours at a time...  I think it's still due to the Clomid.  But a few hours is waaaaay better than the 30 mins "here and there" that I was getting prior to Tuesday.


Today, feels amazing!  :)  Chris took KJ to school and I took Pickle.  They each got some one-on-one parent time before school.  I think it's great for them!  (and it cut my travel time down too!)  I look forward to tonight's basketball games (Pickle will be cheering on her team from the sidelines due to her injury) but it's going to be a GREAT Friday! :)

Happy Friday to YOU!  Enjoy the "little" things in your life and be blessed!

Clomid: round 3 in 2010 (150mg)

Round three is over and done with (12/29/10 — 1/2/10).  Phew!  Yay!!  Wooohooo! . . . Okay, I just *had* to celebrate.  Today is Day 11 for me.  So far, round 3 tops them all (even the rounds in 2008).  Hot flashes, nausea, headaches, insomnia . . . I really, truly, with all my might, hope that we conceive this month.

KJ, almost every week, several times a week, talks about how she "really" wants a little baby sister (and sometimes she even says she wants a brother).  It's not all that simple for a six year old to understand why it's, in her words, "taking so long!".  haha.  People we know are not only getting pregnant, having babies . . . they're even getting pregnant again and even delivering the next baby!! --all while we try for number two.  So, KJ thinks it's supposed to just happen (ha... don't we all?!)

I'm really getting my hopes up at this point and it's a bit concerning because, emotionally, I might be getting close to my limit, my breaking point.  I just have to continue to trust God, trust His timing, and also trust myself to know when 'enough is enough' again.  The thought of another chapter of our lives where we try and don't conceive is just too hard to swallow right now.  I tell myself to just keep pushing --a little harder . . . just one more round . . . just one more month.  This month has been the absolute toughest.  :(

I'm ready for some joy (in the ttc area of our lives).  I've had dreams of being pregnant and others of getting a positive hpt reading.  KJ has even had a dream that I had twins!!  haha that would truly be a miracle!! (I've prayed for twins since I was 7 years old or so)

I welcome 2011 with an open mind and heart.  I'm focusing on all the wonderful blessings in my life... life must go on.  :)

I want a hippopotamus for Christmas

Christmas has come and gone . . . and not a single post from me.  :(  Shame, Shame!

I finally made the shirt I wanted for Christmas 2009 (something similar to what I had wanted)
What I would have loved to have:

 

What I was able to make at the last minute:

KJ's Shirt

What I would have loved to be able to make:

What I was able to make for her at the last minute:

 

(she lost her two front bottom teeth at the right time of the year --to really enjoy it!)

We had a wonderful Christmas!

Clomid: round 2 in 2010 (100mg)

I'm done with this round.  I have mixed feeling about it all.  For some reason, I just wasn't really thinking, I took my first dose of Clomid on Day 1 instead of Day 5.  So, I spoke with the nurse and she said to stop and wait until Day 5 —to just take the remaining 4 doses (instead of a total of five).  So, a part of me feels that "if it's meant to be it will be"; however, a part of me feels that I really messed up my chance for this cycle...like a wasted cycle...a waste of trying!  :(  BUT . . . I trust God and I'm doing my best to stay focused on other things.  It told myself to stop marking every little thing down and to stop counting every single day that goes by.  I don't have a count down this month.  It's actually gone by a bit faster —either because there are so many other things going on, or because NOT counting every single day is working.  :)

It hit me yesterday . . . how it feels as though everyone around me is preggo —which I know is not true, but if it's not a newly born baby update it's a preggo update.  I love them, I do!  It's my chance to be reminded of all the little details.  I think I had just brushed it off for long enough and yesterday was the day it just hit home.

I have to remind myself though that I'm in the middle of a WONDERFUL thing —to expand our family through Fostering to Adopt.  I have to just keep moving forward because in as little as 3 months, we could be a family of four! :)  I joke with Chris, saying, "I bet once we get [her] that we'll soon end up pregnant!  It just works that way, right?!" lol

I'm looking forward for the rest of the month and I'll have plenty to update next time I blog.

Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, Happy Holidays...