I'm done with this round. I have mixed feeling about it all. For some reason, I just wasn't really thinking, I took my first dose of Clomid on Day 1 instead of Day 5. So, I spoke with the nurse and she said to stop and wait until Day 5 —to just take the remaining 4 doses (instead of a total of five). So, a part of me feels that "if it's meant to be it will be"; however, a part of me feels that I really messed up my chance for this cycle...like a wasted cycle...a waste of trying! :( BUT . . . I trust God and I'm doing my best to stay focused on other things. It told myself to stop marking every little thing down and to stop counting every single day that goes by. I don't have a count down this month. It's actually gone by a bit faster —either because there are so many other things going on, or because NOT counting every single day is working. :)It hit me yesterday . . . how it feels as though everyone around me is preggo —which I know is not true, but if it's not a newly born baby update it's a preggo update. I love them, I do! It's my chance to be reminded of all the little details. I think I had just brushed it off for long enough and yesterday was the day it just hit home.
I have to remind myself though that I'm in the middle of a WONDERFUL thing —to expand our family through Fostering to Adopt. I have to just keep moving forward because in as little as 3 months, we could be a family of four! :) I joke with Chris, saying, "I bet once we get [her] that we'll soon end up pregnant! It just works that way, right?!" lol
I'm looking forward for the rest of the month and I'll have plenty to update next time I blog.
Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, Happy Holidays...
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