IVF #1, Days 29-31: Recap

Since we received the wonderful news, not much has changed.  I still feel like I'm talking crazy, saying, "I'm pregnant".  I don't "feel" pregnant.  I mean, yes, my body feels different, sore boobs and sore and tender lower abdomen (endo is way more sensitive right now, with every movement), I'm extremely exhausted all day every day, and some nausea and nasty indigestion has definitely kicked in.  Oh, and I'm struggling to fit into my pants because I'm soooo bloated! ...but it's not to an extreme where I feel it's not my norm (from IVF meds or endo).

I want to be super duper excited, but I'm still just a tad hesitant because it's all so surreal.  I wonder when and if it will ever feel real.

I will go in for my second Beta test tomorrow.  I'm praying that the numbers are doubling as they should.  If I get great news again tomorrow, then maybe I'll feel a little more like it's real?

KJ, still doesn't know because she made it very clear that she does not want to know until there is an ultrasound to confirm that everything is going well.  It's been really tough not saying anything in front of her.  We've been very careful about not letting her overhear our excitement or conversations.  I can't wait until we know our first ultrasound date so that I will at least know when we might be able to share the news with KJ.

Symptoms:

• complete scatterbrained and forgetful
• exhausted/sleepy/tired
• bloated
• indigestion and nausea
• super emotional
• hot flashes —right after my nightly progesterone in oil injection
• very sensitive lower abdomen (I assume it's due to endo, because of the pain)

Here are some other things that have gone on:

10:27:
When we got "the phone call", we were at La Cantera.  We had just left Build-A-Bear and we were buying a soft pretzel, talking about the two for one special they had going on.  I heard the phone ring and saw the caller ID . . . my heart started racing.

The nurse told me that my numbers looked "Fantastic", beta was 500, and that everything looked great with my progesterone level.  Then she said, "So, I want to say, congratulations!  You are pregnant."  I immediately said, "oh yay!! Praise God!! Thank you so much!!"

As soon as I hung up, I jumped up and down a few times, while gripping Chris's jacket, beginning to cry, and said "Hun!!!... She said everything looks fantastic.  My Beta is 500!!  Hun, it's real!!  We're pregnant!!"  (of course I said this quietly, but with a ton of joy and excitement.  I needed to make sure KJ would not hear.  She was off to the side, playing with some of her new stuffed pups —she was lost in her world of imagination).  Chris was so happy he stopped what he was doing, ordering or paying for his pretzel, and hugged squeezed me.  It was a great moment.

Jokingly, he said "I just found out my wife's pregnant!", to no one in particular.  He didn't care who was around...  Yes, we got some strange looks from the lady that handed us our pretzel and drink, but we didn't care.  We were so giggly and excited as we walked back to the car.

Then we were off to Austin, for my nephew's first birthday celebration!

road trip to Austin

I knew I wanted to tell my mom and sis in person.  So, I waited until the party was over and everyone was gone (or at least at their car).  I shared the news with my mom and sis and it was perfect!  We all cried and hugged and it's that special moment you always think about.  :)
*If I would have waited one more minute, before telling them, Chris would have exploded from holding it in from 11am until around 4:30pm or so.  Lol  He was being so silly (we were joking that he was just like the "surprise lady" from SNL!! LOL




10/28:
As soon as I woke up, thanks to a picture on facebook, of sausage for breakfast, I was immediately wanting to eat bbq sausage links and egg.  Here's the really crazy part... I don't really like sausage.  I'll eat it when it's covered in mustard, wrapped in bread or a tortilla.  But Sunday morning, I really, really, wanted some blackened bbq sausage with a side of scrambled eggs.

Chris stopped at HEB, on his way home from another errand, and he bought some sausage links.  I cooked them exactly how I wanted and I enjoyed my plate of sausage links and eggs.  I didn't want anything on the sausage, not even mustard.  It was just perfect!  —and then the nausea kicked in...

In the evening I was forced to go to Fiesta Texas (lol).  I say forced only because we had to go get our passes done so that we wouldn't miss out on the free upgrade/perks, that ended on Sunday.  So, KJ and met Chris out there.  (he had already been out there with a friend).

I was nauseous the entire time I was there.  I couldn't ride a single ride with my KJ :(.  It was so frustrating.  The only thing I could tolerate was sipping on my ice cold water.  Oh, and everywhere we walked, there was a strong smell of people, turkey legs, roasted corn, popcorn, hamburgers, pretzels, etc... and did I mention people!! Ugh!  It did not help!

Visiting Fiesta Texas for the last night of Fright Fest

Once we all got home, and I got my nightly injection, Chris went back out with his friend to a haunted house.  KJ went to bed and my bff came to visit!  :)  It was so nice to have some girl-time in a quiet house.  She gave me such a sweet and thoughtful gift:

"morning sickness relief kit"
Includes: Ginger chews, Peppermint oil, and Sea-Bands.  :)

10/28:  Info I was reading in one of the [many] books my sis lent me.  Our embryo(s) will be 22 days this friday, 11/2!!  The early stages of life are truly amazing!

Today is the day...

Today, I will not be sharing the "I'M PREGNANT!" news.

I received my 25 wonderful little pouches of hpts. I immediately used one. Of course, by now, my mind can be very convincing and see a faint line on just about any test. So, I'm forcing myself to stay calm and level headed until I actually see some kind of PINK line -not a shadow, not a fuzz, etc.

I'm sad. I wish it would have shown up positive today. I know I'm testing SUPER early -I'm just super anxious because of allllll that my body has gone through in the last few days. But I also know that all, except two, are my normal daily symptoms (from meds, endo, and hormones). So, I'm still hopeful and super anxious.

I'm currently packing (well, supposed to be! lol I'm taking a little break) for our first *out of state* family vacation! This will be KJ's first time to fly on a plane. She's been talking (and asking) about flying on a plane since Chris and I went to Vegas in 2007. Chris and I havent even taken an out of state trip since 2008. Im ready to have some fun as a family -flying on a plane together and making great memories! We are going to Disney World (Originally we thought to go as a family for our 10th anniversary, this July, since we honeymooned there. But then we remembered how HOT it was in July 2002 --we very quickly changed our travel dates to spring time.) and the most exciting thing about this is that she has NO IDEA yet. It's a big surprise that we are going to reveal to her on Saturday morning when we wake her up. :D All she knows is that we are traveling to Austin to visit Auntie and her cousins; little does she know that we are going to fly to Florida the next morning. Im SO excited!! Chris will be streaming "the big reveal" live; if you're interested in watching, it will be on Ustream and just do a search for mrcmayfield. It will be sometime around 7:30am-8:00am (central time). Hopefully she has the excited reaction we are all hoping for. Lol. Knowing KJ, as different and surprising as she is, she could be the one child to have the opposite reaction! LOL

So, today was not the day of my long awaited BFP. Today is the day I pack and focus on our exciting vacation we have planned!

Happy Thursday everyone!

My hands smell soooo good!

The cheesecake is in the oven now . . . my hands have the lingering scent of 'Seattle's Best' Chocolate Toffee flavored coffee -Mmm! --and cocoa.
It has been a strange morning . . . I'm not used to being all alone in the house -it's a little akward.  I have this feeling of "I have to go wake Kryssa up now."  But then I remember, "Oh, no I don't.  She's not here."   I miss her; even last night, as we were laying in bed, I kept on telling Chris, "I don't know how I'm going to handle our TEN day vacation (we leave in 5 days!) if I am missing her tonight --I'm with her all the time; I shouldn't be missing her over one night . . . I should be okay . . . ".  But it was not planned for her to stay the night and I was about 5 mins away when my mom called to say that Kryssa was asleep and I could just leave her there --they'll take her to Austin too.  So, I was really looking forward to hearing "Mommy!  Hi Mommy!" --she's always super excited when I pick her up.  So, that's probably why I've missed her the way I have -my heart was left waiting for her little smile and tiny voice to say "Mommy!" . . . I'm anxious to get to Austin and see her!! hee hee  Only 5 more hours!!! LoL.
Now, don't get me wrong; I AM ENJOYING THIS TIME!!!  She is one big ball of energy and a determined little 'explorer' --so, this is a wonderful, amazing, well needed, alone time.
So, I will drive to Austin all alone . . . I haven't done that since . . . hmmm . . . before I was marriend ('02) -maybe sometime when I was pregnant ('04)(although, I doubt I drove to Austin alone, while pregnant!) . . . .? --Either way, it's still been yeeears.
It's going to be a nice quite day!! YAY!! :D

Oh, my hands smell so yummy . . . I just hope the cheesecake turns out to taste as yummy as my hands smell.  Ha ha, I hope this smell stays stuck on my skin all day --it's like walking down the coffee isle . . . Mmmm . . . .