You are not welcome back

Another clomid cycle has passed —and the results, once again, have tested my emotions.  Today's visit also resulted in very concerning, bad, news...not only not am I not pregnant, and the doc doesn't feel that the clomid is even doing its job "properly" at this point (because I'm still ovulating really late), but the ultrasound showed a very concerning cyst on my right ovary again.  :(  So i have to go back next week to see its progress.  If it doesn't go away, I have to stop clomid for a while.  (Nooooooo!)  And if it's worse by next week, I might end up facing another surgery —ugh! In the name of Jesus --let the cyst be gone by next week.

I really had my hopes up for this month.  But I know I have to trust God and at this point I'm just more focused on next week's appointment —I need that cyst to be gone...

There's something in the air

2/17/11 updated "28 reasons why I love you"
I have to admit, now that we are on day 17, it's getting a bit harder to find specifics and not just "I love you!"  I love all sorts of things about him but to pick ONE to post everyday is a challenge...

1.  "I love your determination to be a strong, hard-working, leader for our family."

2.  "I love how you literally dance "like no one's watching" yet you know EVERYONE is watching —and you LOVE it." 


3.  I love that you let me talk your ear off. 

4.  I love that you bring "surprises" even while doing the most routine errand --grocery shopping.

5.  I love when you sing at the top of your lungs because you really truly LOVE singing...no matter how crazy you seem. Lol You're the best!!!

6.   I love you ... Because you're "moto-moto" [sexy] and you just always win me over -no matter what else is going on.

7.  I love that you still "dream big"!!

8.  I love you because you think I'm "the best" at all that I do. --and honey, that makes YOU the best!!

9.  I love how you surprise me with sudden acts of kindness . . . Like I've said, "you're like a fine wine —gets better with time"

10.  I love your confidence! (I love how you're so comfortable in your own skin —with who you are! I want to be like that some day...)

11.  I love you because you love me just the way I am... You've never asked me to change "me".

12.  I love you because you always strive to be better and better —you always plan "bigger and better" for our family.

13.  I love you because . . . we really do work well together. ;) "you complete me" hee hee (our strengths really compliment one another)

14.  I love you unconditionally for Everything you are! You amaze me —I love the man that you are today...

15.  I love how you show your love to us.


16.  I love the kid in you that still loves to do "fun" things and act like a crazy, out of control, kid!!


17.  I love you because you wake me up at odd hours of the night to "scoot closer" to cuddle.

2/2/11
Ah, that's right . . . LOVE.

I absolutely LOVE this month.  Here are just a few of my reasons:

1.  It's the most interesting month because its' only consistency is that it is not consistent (in it's number of days) like all the other months.

2.   Valentine's day —yes, every day should be about showing love and thinking of others, and so on.  But, I just love the fact that there is one particular day (or week, or weekend) where someone makes the time to plan something for their loved one(s).

3.  This is the month that my dad welcomed my wonderful husband into the family.  Valentine's day 2002.  Totally unexpected.  I will never forget that exact moment when he acknowledged him as his "future son-in-law".  :)

4.  I love that I can go to the stores and find an endless amount of cute lovey-dovey items to decorate my house with! 

5.  I love the excitement of Groundhog Day.  :)  (really, I do!)


Just recently, Chris asked me, "Why do you love me?".  Do you have your moments where you find yourself wanting to see what your "other half" sees in you?  Well, I totally get where he was coming from when he asked me.  Sometimes you just want to hear it all over again.  :)  So, I've decided to create a list for him throughout this month.  By the end of the month, he will have a total of 28 reminders of why I love him/what I love about him.  I know that I love him.  I know how deeply in love I am with him.  But taking the time to put it into words gives me a tingle inside . . . that "puppy love", "young love", newly married love.  I enjoy that feeling!  It reminds me to praise God for every moment of our journey together.

So, I'll admit that I've had this idea in my head for a long time now and just couldn't figure out how to tell him all the reasons without it being too corny (well I guess I can't tell him all of them . . . new ones keep popping up as time goes by) .  So, I have an opportunity now but I just started it today; I wish I would have started yesterday.  So, I posted two for him today:

1.  "I love your determination to be a strong, hard-working, leader for our family."

2.  "I love how you literally dance "like no one's watching" yet you know EVERYONE is watching —and you LOVE it." 

What are you planning for that "special" someone?  What are your favorite things to do during February?

Here's a challenge:  Express your love to 'your love' during the next 28 days.  C'mon, what's the worse that can happen?  You fall deeper in love?  ;)

With much love,
Michelle

All in 2.5 hrs

what...an...evening! I rushed to get Pickle from her after school care—only to still be charged a nasty late fee.  It really frazzled my evening. I've never had any type of late fees at an after school care program! :(  --at least it was a sweet little elderly lady (it sugar-coated the late fee. haha)

We picked up Pickle's new charm bracelet (her bday gift from us, grandma&grandpa, and auntie and uncle) from Jame's Avery —we were all super excited to see it on her wrist.  :)

I signed KJ up for an introductory karate class.  They don't give prices out —BUT they do give a free session --for whatever reason.  I'm guessing they want the child to want it badly and beg even if the price is too much to handle?  So, I took the bait and KJ will have her very first session (approx. 45mins-1hr) for free! :)  After we get an idea of what its like and how she feels about it, then we will be faced with the price.  :)

After about 5:30pm, my phone got busy . . . I handled -what felt like- a billion phone calls and texts (from family, future business, Pickle's school, Pickle, friends...).  Plus, I was expecting two different people to come over tonight —one to leave a dog for us to dog sit and possibly adopt if we end up enjoying the dog-sitting experience, and another for business.  Both of them had to reschedule.  So, it gave me some time to breathe and enjoy dinner (phew!)

Once we got back home, we got straight to our nightly routine: clean house, shower and bed time for the girls, prep for tomorrow . . . now for the best part . . . rest, relax, and sleep!

I really think it was the late fee that made the evening feel like a full day.  It just frazzled me up and turned my stomach —having to pay $1 per minute I was late -each passing minute felt like 10!! :(  Oh well, right?  I just need to do everything in my power to avoid another one of those (that's why late fees like that exist; and let me tell you . . . THEY WORK! —lol)!

Praise God for not giving me more than I can handle.  :)

goooooooood night.

Oh, the sweet, sweet sound...

...of my doctor telling me that I ovulated!  :)

This was me, doing my happy dance, when I got the call.

I went on Friday, for my usual blood work.  I got a phone call on Monday, saying that the results are too low —it showed that I didn't ovulate and he wanted me to go in again, Monday, to get a 're-do'.  Well, I got the phone call today that I ovulated!!  He said that I'm just ovulating "late" but that it's still good news that I'm ovulating.  It SURE IS!! :D

So, I will go for my scheduled visit on Tuesday, the 22nd, and hopefully . . . just maybe February is our month! ;)



*Oh, and my endo has stayed under control, Praise God!!

nighty night.

Yeah, I'm talking to you!

OVARIES!  Now listen carefully, it is right about time to release an egg . . . you can do it!  Apparently, you like to be three days late —and that's truly fine with me.  Just as long as you don't over sleep . . . or whatever you do during the other 28-30 days.

And you, the other part of this equation . . . yes, 'little swimmers', I'm talking to you now.  Listen up!  There's no time for playing around —no hanky panky; you hear me?!  You swim straight to that egg and you make it happen!!  I mean it!

It's been almost 10 months, this time around, and both of you have just been messing around and teasing me.  I've had just about enough.  So, be on your best behavior and remember what I've told you.